Sleep Deprivation

I wanted to write about sleep deprivation because I suffered from it for a year and occasionally still do therefore I can account for some of the symptoms and give you my general experience of it.

Why did I suffer from it? It was basically out of my own will, I was thinking of the present moment for me and my partner and not future consequences. It all started with getting a second job. I was working already in a shop on a full-time position with random shifts while the open hours were 7am-10pm. I always did 40 hours there , 45 if you count the unpaid lunch breaks. After some time we tried to help what we thought to be a friend to find a job while he stayed in our apartment. We pulled some strings and got him for an interview and he was sure to get it. It was nothing special, cleaning the gym at night nonetheless it was a start so he could get money and look for something else. Being grateful for all our help he didn’t bother taking it so I decided to give it a shot as extra money doesn’t hurt (not entirely true). Starting every day at 10:30pm and finishing at 3:30am I was now doing 65hr a week, Yes I know some people do more but that’s not what it’s about. Did I mention that I was still going to he gym whenever I could?

For the most of the year when I was working I only slept 2.5-4 hours. So let’s get to facts and science, I will list the effects of sleep deprivation and comment me experience on each.

Generally, sleep deprivation may result in:

  • yawning – To be honest I don’t know if there ever was a day I didn’t yawn but during that period it occurred more often with each week.
  • aching muscles – very soon most of my muscles started to be sore and tense.
  • periorbital puffiness, commonly known as “bags under eyes” – commenting this seems pointless you know how it is with bags.
  • hand tremor – After a while I noticed my hands to be very shaky and getting worse for a certain period to a point where I occasionally dropped objects but then declined again for some reason.
  • headaches – I noticed them quickly and had them almost every day but they were minor and not worth complaining about , they were getting worse with less sleep while occasionally unbearable.
  • malaise – It was kicking in but wasn’t serious, malaise is feeling of unease, discomfort or pain and I had trouble to be comfortable anywhere.
  • confusion, memory lapses or loss – After few months I had trouble telling what day it was as going to work on monday and coming back home on Tuesday made it hard to track, I often forgot what I was doing when performing certain tasks and I had real trouble recalling events from previous days and weeks.
  • development of false memory – This was rare , it happened maybe 4 or 5 times over the year where I was completely certain I did some things that actually never happened most of it was work related like forgetting to order stock because I thought that last weeks events were actually happening yesterday etc.
  • depression – This is an uneasy topic to discuss due to many stages of depression and people not entirely understanding what it actually is. But after some reasearch I was well on track to it as common symptoms suggested I should have it I personally didn’t fell depressed but I can’t say I was happy either.
  • stye – Although it felt like it every morning, thankfully I did not have any bad swelling of the eyelids.
  • increased blood pressure – I did not check my pressure in that year so I can’t say anything except that it is normal at present day.
  • increased stress hormone levels – Stress was already part of the daily routine and kept increasing all the time.
  • increased risk of diabetes – we run into that risk every day but for now I’m safe.
  • increased risk of fibromyalgia – Check on that one, heightened pain sensitivity , tiredness , weakness in limbs , muscle twitching and few other symptoms.
  • irritability – Most of the time everything  irritated me, sometime it would come in waves where I was sitting happy and next second I was really angry and wanted to destroy everything in sight.
  • nystagmus (rapid involuntary rhythmic eye movement) – I am not sure, nobody ever pointed it out so it’s probably another false memory, so I say no to this one.
  • obesity – No, I lost 5 kg in first 3 weeks but regained it after few months and my weight was constantly shifting somewhere between 70-75kg.
  • seizures – Thankfully I didn’t have any
  • temper tantrums in children – I guess there is some child left in me, luckily I was able to very quickly control myself
  • mania – I don’t think I can assign it to me, scientific description is a little bit fitting but not full on.
  • Insomnia – This also developed but not in severe stages.

Making this list made me realize how bad it actually was for me, I always knew that sleeping so little while putting out so much energy is bad, but never thought so many side effects come from it. There is also many risks that come from it like diabetes , heart disease , growth suppression, and risk of car accidents.

Did you know that sleeping too little or too much can cause Turrets? Also it is impossible to stay completely sleep deprived unless you have Fatal familial insomnia which is very rare and as the name suggest is always fatal as there is no cure. It is impossible due to micro sleeps which we do involuntarily when we try to keep awake our brain goes to sleep for less than a second sometimes more which we all experienced when you try to stay up but every now and then your head falls and you wake up. I am still experiencing it at work during night shifts during monotonous tasks. I occasionally get short hallucinations with the micro sleeps which sometime are disturbing.

While moving houses last month I was driving 1000km a week and I had serious trouble staying awake and micro sleeps coming relentlessly. Thankfully I was lucky enough to not have an accident behind the wheel.

There is definitely more symptoms of sleep deprivation out there and to experience the ones I did you don’t have to be sleeping bad for so long they come on pretty quickly, so if someone tells you he doesn’t sleep well for some time be thoughtful and don’t annoy him more than he is and if possible just let them sleep.

It is time to cut this post short as I am depriving myself of sleep again by writing untill 2am. This post might be edited and extended so check back in near future and have a good sleep it’s worth it.

Luna

When Cheeba was growing up with us we still lived with my parents in a bigger house so she always had someone to spend time with. After a while we were able to finally move out to live on our own. We rented an apartment , not a perfect place for dogs but we had the ground floor with back door opening to a big grass area so it was making up with it. With both of us working Cheeba often had to stay alone even though we tried to minimize the alone time by coming home on lunch breaks. That was until we decided she should have a companion. Even when common sense together with our landlord said no we decided to get another dog anyway.

We got this litt… not so little dog which more often resembles a bear cub especially in the way she runs, to make our Cheeba happy.

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Even though she was form a private house by all means she can be called a rescue dog. She was not vaccinated, slightly malnourished, definitely beaten, terrified of men and children as well as involved sexually with siblings, father and other local dogs in the first 6 moths of her life which caused very serious problems which I’ll talk about later.

The first day we took her home she was interested in everything we were doing yet still very scared and would run to a corner when we did any sudden moves. Luckily she got on with Cheeba very well instantly. Walks to the park were often difficult, all depending on time. When there no people she was behaving like a perfect dog, didn’t even pull on the lead, but when there were people around especially kids and sometimes cars making noise she started to panic and wanted to run straight in amok. The fact that our apartment was adjacent to a primary school which was next to the only park in town didn’t make life easier. I consider myself fairly strong and trying to hold her while 50 little girls scream and reach out to her was a real pain in the ass. Fortunately since we recently moved she calmed down a lot.

At the beginning her separation anxiety was a big issue, since the apartment was not very big she couldn’t unload her energy and stress in a lot of ways so she ended up destroying a lot of things. Every day something different, from toys to shoes, books, documents etc, one night I left the living room opened at night and didn’t expect her to do anything while we are home but she decided differently and chewed our leather couch. Every time we went to work we worried if she will destroy something or not, hiding all valuables from sight yet it didn’t work, she always found something. We were tired of all the destruction so I decided that when we leave I will lock her in a hall where there was literally nothing and yet she started to chew on the floor skirting. So I bought an anti-chew spray sprayed half of the house, she stopped eating the shoes  but that’s all it did as she kept on chewing. It was the second or third time I decided to leave her in the hall and it was a huge mistake as this happened.

 

Yup she destroyed the feckin wall, isn’t that some desperation. And if that wasn’t enough the next day our landlord called he wants to do an immediate inspection because one asshole from management reported us for having another dog. I was able to postpone the inspection and  got to work with the help of the family and fixed it and no difference could be noticed.

In the end the solution was a muzzle which we put on from time to time.

Since then everything was fine and she became a lovey-dovey and didn’t want to leave our side, even now just a glance at her causes  her to wag her tail lay down ears to the sides and run to us happily licking and jumping.

Some time later it was time for Luna to be finally in heat, we thought she was until after one day of bleeding like she should she started leaking some kind of milky slime. Of course we went to the vet he gave her a shot and told to observe for changes. Unfortunately it was only getting worse, next visit to the vet was exactly the same, third time lucky or not so lucky for Luna. They have finally diagnosed a severe cervix infection which would definitely kill her within days. She had to stay with the vets for an operation during which they had to remove her uterus, ovaries and some associated parts which I can’t remember the name.

Thankfully she quickly recovered and joined us the next day, she was still sore and had stitches as well as antibiotics. We had to be extra careful to not tear the stitches as the were across her whole stomach and we had to regularly check if she is not bleeding. After the removal of stitches she was back to full health and happier than ever and to this day she acts the same like a little puppy which is about to get a treat. Every time she sees us even when we were just in a different room for a minute  she gets super happy and starts licking us. Maybe she knew she dodged the bullet and is grateful for every moment.

Now Cheeba and Luna have a lot bigger home and are happy as ever and are almost inseparable, they get anxious when one leaves the other and try to look for each other.

So that is her back story, and of course more recent events will be posted soon and some more pictures below.

Did I mention she loves putting her head out of the window when driving? a lot more than Cheeba does, have a look.

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Me , Myself and Them

So it’s time to meet me since so far you know about me as much as a priest about sex with someone his own height.

My name is Bartek short for Bartłomiej which is Bartholomew in english. I never liked my name so I stick to the short version. As some of you guessed by name I am Polish but I live in Ireland for last 12 years which is now more than half of my life. I left Poland when I was only ten so I am at the point where my English is better than my Polish language, I am fluent at both but have you seen the depths of Polish grammar? It should be on a list of tortures. I also learned Spanish for few years to a point where I could keep a decent conversation but I did not have a chance to use it in years so it’s all gone.

What content you can expect? good question because I don’t know yet myself. Some sure topics will probably be about cars, music, gaming, random facts and knowledge, even some gardening and of course pets, photography and adventures of me and my ladies as well as exploration of the dark corners of my mind and shards of my soul.

You probably wonder whats with the ladies or should I say my Lady and 2 bitches. I am not talking about polygamy, I meant my dogs, Cheeba and Luna which you will read a lot about if you plan to follow the blog. What about the lady, yes Paulina, my girlfriend soon to be fiance and then wife.

Did I mention we also have rats? Pet rats not the ones from the streets, to those who don’t know they are lovely funny and intelligent creatures. We have four all together 2 females Ciri and Triss as well as 2 males Geralt and Jaskier ( which translates to Butter cup and not Dandelion in the English version of The Witcher)

Yes as you see by the names we are both fans of the Witcher series, I am a lot more into it than Paulina and yet she gave them those names. I think that is enough for now and you will know more details in the following posts, also I don’t plan to talk about my life as if the world revolves around me, the goal is the allow you learn hopefully something new with every post, I will try to always squeeze in some fun facts , general knowledge or other wisdom in all my posts.

 

Penumbra

penumbraHello and welcome to my yet nonexistent readers. Hopefully that will change with time.

I guess I should start the first post with an introduction.

So why the odd name Penumbra? I like to think the meaning will be fitting to what this blog hopefully will become. Penumbra – partial shadow between perfect darkness and full illumination during an eclipse for example or any object you shine a light on, that is the technical term. We all like a shroud of mystery so I wonder what will come out of the shadows and where will my mind wander more often to the dark places or towards the light?. I am a fan of written word and like to write but never did it as much as I would like to.  So the “pen” in umbra is somewhat of a pun.  Also my amazing girlfriend likes to say “There is beauty in the darkness” so I hope she will like the title as I plan to post a lot of her pictures as she is a wonderful  photographer and an aspiring painter.

So this a short introduction to my blog, next post will be about me and after that we will find out if I’m fit to keep a blog alive and interesting. Also, big favor to all the readers , writers, grammar nazis and anyone that has something to say I will appreciate any kind of feedback because what are we here for if not to improve in all aspects of our lives.